stuff bout Him

I just re read not the last post, but the one before, from December!

It's funny how it all worked out.

Turns out, that due to advice from most of my friends, i did not quit when I said I would.

I quit as of my birthday, so for the second time in my life, I have to apply for centrestink ON MY BIRTHDAY.

I think 28 year old me = EPIC FAIL!

The latest boy I mentioned... Of course drunk me mentioned it to him. But the weird part is, that same boy is STILL on the scene, as of right now. I shall call him Him, as that's what he is known as on twitter. God I love that website.

Yay Nick D'arcy.

Him is... Strange. We've been seeing each other for over 4 months. I don't class it as serious. I do not know if he even likes me. I mean, he must, to keep seeing me for this long, but he's only even twice told me I look nice. He's not a complementer. I like complementers.

Don't get me wrong, he can be quite sweet. But I prefer someone who is more verbal in their interractions.

This one and I have been plodding along. He's hard to talk to. He's smart beyond belief. He is rich, as is his family, which is a fact that scares me.

I am not used to partners who are well off. He took me to Cloudland and shouted dinner, drinks, snacks, cocktails. Was a wonderful night, but I still feel bad for it.

I am someone of simple tastes.

I don't love him, cause he isn't showing me enough of who he is. I think that's is just him. I do not know if I can deal with that.

In fact, I know I cannot. I need to break up with him, but for now, his generosity is good. He brings me wine, he cooks for me and buys me dinner (I'm talking twice a week, tops here!!!!!)

My thoughts around him leave me sighing heavily. I like him, but I don't know if he feels the same. And the only way that I'll know is to ask. It'll happen soon enough.

Been awhile

But I am sort of unpredictable like this. This really isn't the forum to be writing this. But to be honest, I really just can't be bothered to start another blog.

And my counsellor is booked out til May 6th.

And, me, who loves telling strangers and friends alike every final detail of my person life, just really doesn't want to anymore.

I have my close friends, but over the last 3 weeks, I've been becoming more distant to them. I don't know whether this is intentional or unintentional.

I'm spending an increasing amount of time in front of this here laptop and feeling sorry for myself.

And the CnH2n+1OH doesn't help.

There's tears. There's thoughts of helplessness, but I just can't. be. bothered with the whole talking thing.

wallowing and grinding teeth just feels... Nice on the odd occasion.