Upbeat

I am still feeling positive about moving back in with the parentals. I think the reason it is different this time, is because I really do not care if anyone thinks negatively of me for it.

I think a lot of this has to do with the new counsellor, who has helped me realise that a few things about my relationship with my Mum are a little toxic.

She was/ still is a classic helicopter parent, and my way of dealing with it my whole life has been to take EVERYTHING she says to heart. Making me the little pile of anxiety I am today.

It is amazing how much happier I am feeling since my counsellor helped me make this discovery. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I still love my family, but I wont accept them trying to live my life for me. I wont accept being told what I can and cannot do. But I will respect their rules while I am living under their roof. But they need to respect my decisions that I make for myself.

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My life has become quite colourful as of late. A few paramours floating around. Some of the attention wanted, some not. I'm also teaching myself to reject nicely, rather than ignore. I've stolen the one thing I love from Christianity- the "Do unto others" rule.

This will be hard being under the parental roof, but I certainly don't intend to bring any of that life back there. It wouldn't be understood let alone condoned.