F**ked

Last night could not have been weirder if it tried.

I knew I said I wouldn't be round, but this may help to explain a bit about how I came to the second meltdown of 08...

I didn't want to sit at home on a Friday night while DG and Flatmate had their separate birthday drinks. I wanted to be round my friends who support me, rather than mope at home by myself. In hindsight, that would have been a MUCH cheaper option, and saved me a while lot of weird, but...

I met with the twins, DG, Swede, B and Moo at a bar in the city. It was the first time I'd seen Moo since her bro died, and she's not good. But she had her engagement ring on, her and her partner brought things forward after the death.

We were talking and I mentioned that RB was going and taking a date. Moo said, I knew a RB once, he didn't stop ringing me one night and I had to get my flatmate to answer the phone and say he was my boyfriend and to stop ringing me. She then said, yeah you know the night to me, and we all remembered, we were all there.

Moo asked if my RB works at *named workplace* and carries a backpack. Both of those things were common between the RB's we knew, so B showed Moo a pic and she said she thought it could be him.

We all headed to Flatmate's drinks, and there was RB with his date/ very possible new girlfriend. I went straight to Flatmate and told him the story. Two seconds later, Moo confirmed it was in fact him. I told her she had missed out, cause he wasn't that bad ;P

After Moo, the twins and DG left for another pub, I went up to RB and asked him if he remembered a night last October where he stalked some girl, blah, blah. He did remember and I laughed at him and went back to Swede and B.

I still like him. I hate how you have no control over who you have a crush on...

Later on, I saw Mr "I only want to be friends" who I went on a date with last Sunday. I pointed him out and they all were being nice about it. B offered to go over and have words, but I declined her offer.

And then I started getting weird texts from a very good male friend of mine who has a girlfriend.

By this stage the Swede was so drunk so I was looking out for her and helping her stand. Flatmate has a crush on Swede, and was dancing with her for a while, and B ever so tactfully told him that he didn't have a chance.

RB and his date were going to another pub, and all of a sudden the date introduced herself to me, and we swapped numbers and she wanted me to go to the pub with them. I did have intentions to, but was sober enough to know it'd be a bad idea.

And THEN I spotted date from Sunday guy making out with a girl who was much larger than me. At this point, I thought "At least he didn't like me cause I was too fat", then I grabbed the closest guy, who happened to be a friend of friends who is here from Perth and kissed him.

We found chewing gum in my hair and had an ordeal removing it, involving Perth guy biting out the chunk of my hair which had the gum in it.

Then all of a sudden, Swede was making out with one of Flatmate's good friends. I still don't know if he knows. I want to tell him but I wont.

And at the end of the night Perth boy came home with me and left at 2pm today.

So strange.